My life dripping Seeping out the edges, seams coming unraveled Faster, faster. I'm trying not to sink. To keep treading water, keep floating up Kick, kick, kick. Staying happy, staying at the surface Being there. Setting a good example. Life goes on. Protect my babies and pretend I'm not so sad. Happiness is really elusive. What I thought it was has vanished and I know now I know that it wasn't ever truly there the way I wanted. It was a mirage The way I wanted things to be so I just kept treading, treading water Walking lightly Ignoring fights Brushing, sweeping under the rug Always forgetting. Always forgetting. And now it's so hard not to forget... To want to forget To think it was okay, to wish you could have been what I needed, what I wanted, what I told myself you were for more than half my life... I was treading, treading water Pretending this was more Ignoring my own feelings and now I don't know who I am anymore. But I
I like to write. I haven't done it enough.