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I Can Feel It...

I can feel it
Creeping up
Laying in the corner, avoidance all written across its face.

I can feel it
Almost happening
Coming thisclose and then falling back again.

I can feel it
Peering in
Against the window, face smushed there, fogging the glass like morning mist.

I can feel it
Know it will be
Allow myself to begin to believe it's right around the corner.

I can feel it
But can't reach out to grasp
The strings hang loosely beyond my reach...

I can feel it...
Someday soon.
Until then I lie in wait, in hope, impatient.
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